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Understanding Grief A timely selection from My Care Letter, a free, monthly publication from the funeral directors at Lindquist Mortuaries/Cemeteries. The words of the doctor seemed to have such a hollow ring to them as they impacted my numb and disbelieving brain. I felt as if an invisible hand was pushing me off my chair. I struggled to grasp what I was being told. The whole situation had an air of unreality about it. It was like a bad dream. I expected to wake up at any second and realize to my relief that this wasn’t really happening. But it was happening. My wife, a young woman in her thirties, had died of a heart attack. The days that followed would be full of new challenges, not the least of which was being a single parent to my two sons, then 9 and 7 years of age. But the biggest challenge of all was not as immediately apparent. I was beginning a grief process. I didn’t even know there was such a thing as a grief process, far less how to deal with it. There is not much understanding of grief in our society. We have not learned what IS normal after a significant loss... what we should expect, what emotions we will experience, how long the process continues. Many people, albeit with good intentions, try to rationalize the situation, with phrases like “it’s a blessing in disguise,” or “maybe it’s for the best.” These statements may or may not be true. But for us, it doesn’t feel like a blessing. To us, it’s NOT for the best... in fact, we may feel it is the worst thing that could have happened. Perhaps you have experienced a significant loss recently. I wish I could sit down and listen to you tell me about the special relationship you had with the person, whatever that relationship happened to be. Whether you have experienced the loss of a spouse, a parent, a child, or the loss of a relative, friend or colleague, whenever we experience a loss, we experience grief. This article is designed to help us understand grief and to validate the many emotions we may experience after a loss. Grief is normal, yet saying it is normal does not minimize its difficulty. Grief is one of life’s most challenging experiences, and I hope reading this will help you cope with it. Grief involves Suffering Grief is an emotional response to a significant loss. Because it is an emotion, it is difficult to describe. The Scots have a saying that some things are better “felt than tell’t.” Grief is one of these things. Whenever we lose someone (or something), or an attachment is broken, we can experience a painful reaction. To experience grief is to acknowledge that you have loved someone, and now that person has gone. If you hadn’t needed that relationship, or risked the emotional attachment, you wouldn’t be feeling the loss. But you did, and, oh yes, it was worth the risk. It is a high compliment to any relationship that we miss it enough to shed a tear and feel emotional. How awful if we didn’t! Tears are not a sign of weakness, but an indication of how special the relationship was, and, now that it is gone, we miss it. To experience grief is to acknowledge that you are a human. Grief Involves Surprises Because we have not understood grief, its intensity often comes as a surprise. We can find ourselves bewildered by the avalanche of emotions that can impact us. Among these emotions are numbness, shock, confusion, disbelief, anxiety, absent mindedness, restlessness, crying, fatigue, appetite disorders, sleep disruptions, physical symptoms, anger, guilt, depression, and the list goes on. What is most surprising is that every person’s grief process is unique. Some people experience certain emotions, other people experience others. Everyone is different, and so the way you respond to your unique loss, will not be the same as anyone else’s. That’s why I NEVER say, “I know how you feel.” I don’t know, how can I? All I know is how I felt when grief touched my life. Just because one person experiences something one way does not mean another person is abnormal because their experience is different. Yet it is amazing how many people do not give others the freedom to grieve in a way that is right for them. You are unique. Your situation and the relationship you have lost is unique. So do not be surprised if your response to your loss is unique. Grief involves Surrender The days after the loss of my wife were confusing. I felt numb. People may have thought I was doing well, and even commended me for how strong I was. But I wasn’t strong. I was numb. Even when that numbness began to wear off, I had difficulty accepting that Carolyn was really gone. I found myself searching for her: hoping to see her in the shopping mall; going to the cemetery and talking with her. I kept hoping that somehow she was going to return. Of course I didn’t tell anyone this, because they might have thought I was going crazy. In fact, such feelings are not crazy. They are an important part of coming to terms with reality. But inevitably we have to surrender to the reality that we have had a loss. That may seem like the most obvious statement, yet it is exceedingly difficult to accept, and for a considerable time we fight against the idea. Sooner or later, however, we have to realize that our loved one has really gone, and will not return. Often, it is when people think we should be getting ourselves together, we feel we are falling apart. People who do not understand the grieving process may not know that it is normal to fall apart even months after the funeral, or find Christmas, birthdays, anniversaries, or just “a year ago today” days difficult. Grief is normal. YOU are normal. Surrender to the process that follows every significant loss. Grief involves Survival After a loss, we may wonder how we are going to manage to go on without our loved one. It is not easy to lose whomever or whatever we have counted on for support, encouragement and indeed the confidence to face the world. When this does happen, we struggle to cope with many un-expected and surprising emotions. Basically these emotions help us face the question, how will I manage in the light of my loss? Will I be able to go on without the person? Often in the early days after a loss, it is simply a matter of survival. That word actually derives from two Latin words... “vivo” – live, and “sur” – beyond. To survive means to find the resources to “live beyond” the experience of loss. The adjustments one must make are many. These can be practical, emotional, physical, social and spiritual. Each adjustment can be a painful process. Sometimes mere survival is a major success. Grief involves Struggle Grief is difficult. It is never easy to lose someone you have relied on. This is possibly the most difficult experience of your life. There’s an ancient Warrior Song that says, “Life has meaning only in the struggle, Triumph or defeat is in the hands of God. So let us celebrate the struggle.” One of the things I believe about God is that He gives us choices. In some things, we have no choice. We had no choice in the death of our loved one and much as we might like, that situation cannot be changed. But we do have a choice around what we do about it. We can choose to be bitter or better. We can choose to be victims or victors. Some people, after a loss, see themselves as a victim. They refuse to struggle to come to terms with the situation. But it is as we struggle that we discover that with every loss there is a gain. You didn’t think you could make it, but suddenly you’re discovering strength and resources you didn’t know you had. Expectant mothers have labor pains, teenagers have growing pains, but out of that pain comes growth and life. That doesn’t make the pain any easier, but it does help put it in a meaningful context. Life is full of problems. Each one has the potential to be a stepping stone or a stumbling block. Will the problem trip you up and be a barrier to your progress? Or will you allow it to become a stepping stone to growth and renewed life. Stepping stone or stumbling block. Both are made of the same material. What we do with them makes all the difference.
LINDQUIST
MORTUARIES/CEMETERIES
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